So...

Life changes are about to occur. As like many people of our great country, my tiggie lost his job. But not to despair! He's got some really good skills, and talent out the wazoo. I just took a peek at some possible job offers out there, and while he may not take what I've found, it's at least given me hope that he can find something.

If we go out there, we already know the city that we'd be going to. Culver City. He has friends there. And from what we could tell, it's really not too bad. And it's not that much more expensive than here.

That's not to say it's Not expensive. It is. We'd both have to find work...My on the low end, since I have nothing for skill and barely any education. [Some college, but certainly not enough to be impressive anywhere]

Later on, when stability occurs, I'll go back to school. That is a given. But for now, I'm more focused on figuring out where we're gonna go. And how we're gonna do it.

I was trying very hard not to make this a bitching journal. But I do have a few things to get off my chest. So please, forgive me for this.

While I knew we weren't gonna stay here forever, I have to admit, I was really hoping we wouldn't have to go far. My biggest lament, which poor tiggie has heard from me more than once, is that I'm moving further and further away from what I've known. That's change, That's life. I know.

But the other thing is...the other thing that bother's me, is Every single time I make friends, in about a year...less than 2, I always have to leave them. [or they have to leave me..life of foster homes will do that] And that really is taking it's toll on me.

Sure, it could be said that I can visit them from time to time. And yes, we have the net so it's not like I'm Away from them....But lets face it. It's not the same. We all have to move on.

I guess it's hitting me kinda hard, because when I moved from Maine, back to mass, I lost my friends. Yes Lost. We don't speak anymore. They have moved on with their lives. And i am happy for them...but it's just...all too familiar now.

And I guess that's what is bothering me the most. I'm not confident as much anymore as I used to be when it comes to meeting people. And at this point, I'm almost not even wanting to try. After all, I'm only gonna move god knows where again anyways.

This is not a dig to Tiggie. This is simply how i've always felt long before I even met him. I'm just letting it out.

so there we have it.

California? I think we're invading you.
The best way for me to view this, is an adventure. There are plenty of opportunity for tiggie. He's got friends in Culver City, he can be in a band with them again, he can find the work he's Really into there. And it's a different place to be.

As for me? well..ummm It's a different place to be. I'll be there with him. And I can find a new job. [somehow, I don't feel as excited about that. o,O I think it's only for now though. When I get a better education, I can shoot for a better job]

I'm trying. I really am. He doesn't want me to worry. Can't help it I am. This feels Really heavy on me right now. But, I do have faith in him and I Do trust him. Very much. Hence is Why I'll move to Cali. But it's still not without it's fears.

Mew.

Ok I think I'm done lamenting. ^^